So true. What I tell myself all the time when I think that myself is not good enough.
Starting a new series of posts that focuses on my journey to completing my thesis in my graduate program. Most of the faculty, especially my advisers, have encouraged me to free write and reflect often. Reflecting on the research and the process of conceptualizing it, will help in deepening my analysis and also, keep me focused on what the heck I’m trying to accomplish.
In junior year of high school, I was asked by a group of Filipinos to participate in a folk dance performance called “Singkil” for our school’s International Assembly and Night performance. I was thrilled because it was the first time I would be a part of traditional Filipino dance performance… EVER! Yes, you heard me right, prior to this event, I had never been asked to be part of any traditional folk dance performance, primarily because I had always been regarded in our community as “too American.”
It’s nice to meet you Michelle! Thank you for reaching out. I would love to be Tumblr friends :) I just started following you back so I can stay up to date with your writing. Glad to see that there’s another Pinay blogger! Mindfulness practice is pretty awesome and it’s definitely given me the peace of mind I’ve been searching for. I can’t wait until I can start exercising again after I’ve finished with physical therapy because I’m in dire need of incorporating more physical activity into my mindfulness practice haha.
Please stay in touch!
One of my favorite Audre Lorde quotes. Happy Wednesday! #audrelorde #selfcare
It has been brought to my attention that the usage of this phrase has become an epidemic for those that have lost all hope and feel there is nothing left to latch onto but what has already been established. And I am a firm believer that things don’t have to remain the way they are, unless we want it to.
One thing I’ve struggled with for a long time has been trying to control the anxiety I have over what the future holds. I’m notorious in stressing over future events, whether it’s an interview, big project presentation, or getting a paper at school returned to me. I make up several scenarios in my head over what could happen and this often times leads me to add more stress that is ultimately, unnecessary.
Spending #selflovesunday in bubble bath with my favorite bell hooks read. #relaxed #allaboutlove #selfcare #lovingkindness
Day 3 of this long weekend course and the final day of all of the mediation courses of the program has now officially come to a close!! We did a fun closer at the end of the class where we stood in a circle and each said something about our experience in the class, then threw a ball of yarn to each other, making a web. Afterwards we each cut a part of the yarn and would tie it to each other’s arms, symbolizing that we were taking a piece of each other after the class. It was a powerful and also, fun activity! I’m happy that the class is over because this has been a mentally draining weekend and term as well but also sad that this was the last mediation course that I have to take before graduation. Realizing that this is the last core course also means I’m that much closer to being done, which has me extremely excited and terrified at the same time.
But the term isn’t over yet! I still have next weekend’s research methods course to look forward to. After next weekend though, I am done with winter term! YAY! Then it’s diving head first into the my thesis for the next few terms.
If you know me, you know that I have multiple jobs. 4 jobs, to be exact. I have 2 part-time jobs and 2 freelance jobs. I’m also a full-time graduate student. Why I insist on taking on such a heavy workload is beyond me. Perhaps it’s the appeal of knowing that this load will make me too busy to focus my attention on my anxiety. Or maybe it’s because I feel more valuable when I am busy with a multitude of to-dos on my list. It could be both.